fighting with her own soul

 im fighting with my own soul . its not just a fight , its a war i guess . yeah , he is my ex-boyfriend . EX-BOYFRIEND . im a big LIAR if i said that i does not love him anymore . yeah , i love him . damn much . but thiss love does not bring me to made up with him again . idk why . i keep wondering , i love him but why i dont want to made up our love again . he is a good boy , im too bad for a boy like him , i swear . i know , sometimes the way i care about him , i treat him , the way i talk to him is just like we are in a relationship , but the facts is NOT . its just too complicated , and i dont want to thinks about it and let it flow as it should be . i know nothing . this is the fact of life .

awak , kalau awk bace post nie ; bukan saye taknak sambung balik dengan awak , tapi entahlaa . saya cuba fikir benda nie dari setiap sudut . banyak buruknya dari baiknya . awak fahamkan apa yang saya cuba cakap . saya tahu , cara saya layan awak bila kita lepak sama sama , macam kita couple right ? but truely its not what i want . saye taknak bersikap dingin or whatsoever macam yang ex boyfriend-ex girlfriend selalu buat . kalau boleh , saya nak jadi kawan awak jea . kawan baik . kita penah couple for 2years and a month . and orang gila jea kan yang boleh lupa semua benda yang pernah kita lalui tuu sekelip mate . kalau saya tak layan awak , awak marah . and saya pun rase macam missing someone , alone and kehilangan . but kalau saya layan awak , saye takut saya bagi awk a hope . and saya pun sedar yang saya mcm nak taknak jea layan kan . entahlaa , saya pun taktahu kenapa dengan dirie saya . IM SORRY . saya takde perasaan nak couplecouple , saya taktahu kenapa . saya nak single jea . saya taknak terikat . saya nak kawan dengan semua orang . ape ape pun ,saya tetap percaya , kalau kita ade jodoh , takkan kemana .